I have a slight crush on my POI. There I said it. Whenever he sends me a mail it becomes an event---in the sense that I turn off the music, sit upright and take in every word. I have never met him, but I have seen pictures and spoke to him on the phone. I just think he's so brilliant, our intellectual methods have overlapped on many occasions. For example, his MA thesis was an in-depth study on the same topic as my undergraduate thesis. I suspect he's about 7 years older than me at most.
I am quite ethical when it comes to things like this, but at the same time I think, man, how exciting would it be to be transgressive for once in my life. I know that I would seriously pay for it in the end, and thus would never allow him to even have the impression that I may like him.
I'm just wondering, who else has had similar experiences? Did such feelings eventually go away, or intensify?