medianerd

Well, I just found out that people have been notified at ....3 of my schools? And if I haven't heard I am declined... and I know people who have gotten into those places and I feel like I'm having an out of body experience I'm so upset. One of them was a poor fit, the other was seemingly perfect. Argh.... My mind is reeling.

Ok, ok. I didn't think I'd answer this but here goes. 6 schools = I am already accepted but don't know it 1 waitlist 2 rejects (and the one I already know about) = my 7th acceptance.

I am just feeling so down today I want to sit in a corner and cry.

*babbles incoherently to self in a corner*

I'm with you. I know people who have heard from faculty that they haven't gotten in places, but haven't received notice from the university. Silence is just...our lives on hold. Not indicative of anything in particular. It's just random and excruciating.

I am averaging 5 minutes between hitting 'check' on my email. Check. Check. I cannot believe 9 schools have told me nothing yet. Still no looking at the results search though!

I'm starting to wonder if 9 schools out there remember I exist. I didn't get -any- mail today, which was weird. Well, not for Chicago, I suppose. :roll:

My sanity is also very very fragile right now, and I HATE when I am able to check my email after a long interval and there's nothing here. Sigh. Still have managed not to look at Results Search since yesterday but my resolve is waning. I want to sleep for a week

Well, it certainly helps

I have firmly decided not to read the results search anymore It doesn't help me- my anxiety has quadrupled. But I like talking to y'all. My yoga instructor reminded me of something important yesterday. "The only thing we can control is our thoughts."

Totally double-posting. Hm, someone posted that Michigan is emailing today. I wonder if that's -everyone- or just accepted people or just a specific subfield. *scritches head* And this is why Results Search is not my friend. miratrix- YES! Totally agreed!

Oh guys, I am so sorry :< I am suffering today. Was just in a meeting and my head is so filled with stress I literally can't think straight. Wondering- why am I putting myself through this???? And why, despite my best efforts can't I find a way to cope with it more reasonably????? Gdfgdfgdfgdfgdgdgdfgdgfdfgdfg monkey zort

*sings 'Just another manic Monday.......'*

My anxiety has been so bad that I haven't been hungry in weeks. Except for chocolate I guess. If my SO wasn't a great cook I'd probably be wasting away. Oof.

If I get a paper rejection letter I am going to be particularly cheesed. Not sure why. But I won't! I won't because this is optimistic week! I am brute forcing happy thoughts! My mind will not harbor negativity... la dee da. My SO and I call my student debt "the mortgage".

I am really through with the emotional rollercoaster. I am only okay these days when supremely distracted. I can't seem to get any work done. All I want to do is watch DVDs while curled up on my couch, tuning the world out (and refreshing my email with one hand). Sometimes I manage to distract myself for an hour or two by some other means, but I get depressed and anxious pretty quickly again. I dunno.... am just a mess.

I definitely don't -want- to hear that other people have been contacted by my programs. No sir-eee. I hate this powerless feeling. And I have undergrad debt plus debt from -two- master's degrees, so I refuse to borrow more.

anthcat, I am in the same boat as you- I counted 4 of my outstanding schools up on the results search. I have decided to believe that we haven't heard because they're holding onto our applications while they finalize our financial offers / figure them out. Or at least, that we're waitlisted. Oh well, it's Monday morning. Sigh.

Aw Lizzie, I'm sorry. I think last week was just a bad week. As a result of the stress I am feeling really sick today- headache and general inability to move. I hope next week is better.

Wow, weird dreams. I had a dream my MA program advisor wrote to me to congratulate me for being accepted to a school I haven't even applied to. And then I was contacted by another school I haven't applied to with a hearty congrats! Lovely theme to the dreams, but I'd prefer to get in where I applied :? *hopes it's a sign anyway*

I keep forgetting how many of my schools have been mentioned on the Results Search page. As many wiser applicants than I have advised, I am trying not to think -anything- until I have a decision myself, but oof, I sure do hate to see those schools mentioned in the Results.

Ha, my ranking is 1,1,1,1,2, 2, 2, 5, 9,9 Part of why I am freaking out with one acceptance already is that it's one of the "9s" and I only agreed to apply to it to get one of my letter writers to shut up. If #5 or anything higher had gotten back to me positively I'd be pretty relaxed.

I'll admit it, the Michigan thing is really messing with my head right now. Trying to just not think about any of this...

Oh yeah, the Cornell math thing was hysterical. Much needed

After two years of trying though.