[Probably rejected and certainly depressed]

Hi all,

I'm sorry if this post is inappropriate or too whiny, but no one I know is going through the same thing. Everyone has been so supportive here and I feel like I have to reach out for my own sanity's sake.

So it looks like the first response I'm getting from one of the ten schools I applied to is going to be a rejection. Needless to say, I'm absolutely devastated. When I found out, I cried for over an hour. I just know it was my SOP that killed me. It was the first school I applied to, as it had an early deadline. I tried the anecdote-as-hook thing and looking back on it, it was totally unprofessional. As a whole, also, the SOP was totally unpolished.

My subsequent SOPs were much better, but some were different than others and not all were equal. I'm feeling quite unhopeful right now. My GRE quant score was TERRIBLE (25th percentile; I was very surprised because I'm not actually that bad at math), and I feel like I won't get in anywhere. Trouble is, grad school is all I want to do.

Anyone have any thoughts/condolences? Anyone in the same boat? I feel like I need some solidarity right now.

Thank you in advance and sorry if my post offends anyone.

Dear Alissa,

Your post is not at all inappropriate or too whiny. Haven't heard from anywhere yet & I feel just like you.

Lets cry on each others shoulders.

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1. Eight & a Half

2. The Bicycle Thief

3. Ikiru

4. Wild Strawberries

5. Rashomon

6. Song of the Little Road

7. Battleship Potemkin

8. Lawrence of Arabia

9. The Seventh Seal

10. Amelie