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Ahahaha yes, sorry. I'm on another board where there is someone named Shadowfox. My bad.

I'll definitely try to be as clear as possible. I guess I'm not clear where the lines are with how obvious I can be. I mean, if it were anyone else I'd tell them directly that I find this sort of stuff inappropriate, but I don't want to burn any bridges (especially such huge, important ones as this). I'm trying to remember all the other people who have complimented me on my work, and how they had absolutely nothing to gain from it. Used to be that I felt so thrilled every time he told me how much he thought of the quality of my work, and now it makes me wonder if he's trying to play on my narcissism/ego. Which makes me embarrassed for myself, for believing it and being so flattered and happy. Thanks again for all of your comments. I really appreciate it, more than I could possibly say. ETA: He's American, by the way. That's certainly worthy to note.

Thanks so much, Shadowfox. Would you mind if I PMed you with actual details to get your thoughts on the situation as-is?

Thank you so much for the quick replies! I've been quietly freaking out over here and it's so good to get some level-headed advice from other people in academia. As for me "thinking" it's sexual harassment -- well, actually, I'm more like 99% certain. I just think I tend to minimize things like this because of my past experience and being in denial that I'd let anything like that ever happen to me again. It's not like he's saying "have sex with me or you don't get to work with me" or anything like that -- nothing near so extreme, thank god. It's just things he says and ways he touches me that make me extremely uncomfortable, to the point of physical nausea. I can definitely stick it out. I just need to remember to stay objective, do what I need to do. To be honest, a lot of this has made me question my ability as an academic. Like, am I really all that smart? Am I really good enough to have landed this internship, or am I only here because he is sexually attracted to me? Does he give me more opportunities and treat me differently because I've got a lot of potential (which is what he tells me, at least) or because he wants to charm me? Ugh I hate feeling like this.

-deleted- Thanks so much for the advice, everyone! I'm taking it.