Like an idiot, I decided I wouldn't apply to PhD programs this year. I applied the past two years, outside of my field, and decided I was sick of living in limbo so I would take the year off from the application process. I love my job, and feel rather disconnected from it most of the time because I'm either, writing my applications, turning them in, waiting for a response, etc. You all know, the process is maddening. But then, the most amazing program in my field opened up this year and I took it as a sign. It is the only place I applied.
I met with the faculty and had a wonderful visit. I even asked if there was anything the chair saw that might hinder my application strength, and the chair smiled and said "absolutely not." Sigh. Here's what my stuff looks like on paper:
I have a BA and an MA in the same field. I have been a full-time lecturer in my field for over two years and have glowing letters of recommendation. My writing sample is sound and I even have two publications under my belt (also in my field.) I've done the conference thing,etc. I feel like a good candidate dammit!
Two weeks ago I was notified by the chair in a very personal email that said I had been "wait listed." I too just wanted to be out of limbo and then was put into another limbo stage.
I'm panicked.... I'm sick.... I don't know what to do and feel so helpless.
I know the budgets everywhere (go economy!) are cutting program admits down left and right nationally... I know my chances of getting admitted from that wait list are pretty small.... but good god I wish there was a way of knowing where I am on the wait list, and what my actual chances are. When I emailed to ask the chair was very vague and didn't give me much information.
Someone please offer me some hope.... or set me straight.... 'cuz I'm going crazy.
