ceilel341

(Note: What you're about to read is not representative of the grad school experience. Just ask any of my fellow students) I think that I am experiencing the symptoms of depression. I've had enormous difficulty coping with my course work and I don't want to do anything at all. I'm also, tired, angry and do not love my work anymore. I always imagined that grad school would be wonderful, now I realize that it has only exacerbated my mental health issues (that I did not know existed). What happened to my happiness? Maybe the problem is that I try to find happiness in school alone. So, is there anyway to take time off? I do not want to drop out! I can't seem to meet with a health professional for another two weeks! I find it difficult to wait so long. I was an excellent student in high school and college, but now all that I make are C's and low B's and I generally loathe everything about my school. I've realized that my school and grad school is not the problem, I think that I need a breather. Can anyone help? I feel guilty, because I was so excited and grateful to get a TA, but now I will surely lose it if I can't find anyway to re-center my mental landscape. I'm certain that other grad students have had experience in this area. I don't want to ruin my future! I also do not want to tell my advisor this, because he has such a pristine opinion of me. Please help, I have no one else to talk to right now. I have a bunch of assignments due, but it's difficult to work when you feel hopeless and lack motivation. All that I can seem to do is to search for amusement online and feel empty. I had such high hopes. What would you do in my situation? I could go into immense detail about my difficulties, but I don't think it's necessary.