Canis, this could not be more right. I have my freak outs, too, don't get me wrong. But we all put our best foot forward, and if it doesn't get me in the door this year then there is probably some reason for it -- either something else I need to do or some other reason why it will be better to start a program a year from now (or, maybe, not at all). It's so easy to be fixated on one specific outcome, even when it is not the best thing for you. I know this from personal experience and so I've told myself to *try* to have a more zen attitude about this whole thing. Either way, it will all work out.