Hey Supaslim-
This is really tough. i get it. really. I haven't slept for a while- but try not to lose hope. we all need to keep reminding ourselves that this acceptance and mfa program business is all subjective, and that so many variables are spinning around at respective programs that there's a huge degree of all of this just being out of our hands.
I also totally get the lack of funds and the lack of equipment - residencies are a really great way to get space and equipment. take a look at craft schools too (haystack, penland, arrowmont, etc) This is hard but people do go on to make work without an mfa degree all the time, and with limited resources. keep looking for different types of spaces where you can work!
I religiously check nyfa.org's opportunities classifieds. keep your head up high and good luck! I think your work is really great.