I have applied to many grants, big and small. Nothing happened for 3 years, this year finally went through. I almost had a mental breakdown this winter. I was not even sure if is worth continuing my PhD. It is mentally and financially challenging, but do not let any of this selection processes in which one loses their sense of touch to reality get in your way and disturb you from moving forward. Next year, next applications, next projects you will only get better and you will only get to find other ways to recalibrate your projects. If we were in an egalitarian society in which research and knowledge production was deemed more valuable we would all have been less nervous when it came to a basic income and finance system to simply do research. I send you good energies, don't give up.