Camillalxy

Just killing time (and a bit anxiety) by posting this but it should be fun when I look back in April. Worries: No pubs, no summer internship, no scholarships/fellowships that count, didn't put too much effort into SOPs. Applied to 7 programs that rank (much) higher than the one I'm in as an undergrad and asked for funding. In short, I might have overrated my profile. Excitements: Emailed POIs and they all replied; had informal interviews with 4/7 of them last year. I try not to think about the situation when I get all rejected but if I end up like that, I'll have way more options in life than deciding which offer to accept. I can look for research positions; maybe become a outdoor trip leader in travel agencies; or get photography training and work for National Geographic or Lonely Planet. I'm a fatalist (the reason has something to do with my undergrad admission actually), so whatever that's meant to happen, let it happen. Still, I don't like to be rejected, but getting a PhD then becoming a scientist is just one of ways to enjoy my life.