noboby

Just got my first rejection this morning. I applied 24 schools and only got 1 interview. Only 7 of them haven't send out interview yet. While writing those down, I know that may be I will not be able to get into any school this year. I can still remember the recruiting season in 2018. Everyone were sharing the interview they got, and I wake up with a email saying "Thank you for your interest, but we are sorry that..." every day. I ended up with getting no job in 2018. It was really a nightmare for me. May be the next few week will be the same. May be I ended up with having a debt over $3,000, spending all these time and effort but got no offer. But this time I do not feel bad about this. Not getting into any program isn't a really bad thing. I will have more time to explore what is academic, finish reading my list and journal in my home, gain more experience in industry, and may be even prepare my own paper, before entering a better program. What make me feel bad, is a regret for my family, my friends and my professors. I know how lucky I am to have them support me. They helped me collect information about schools and sometimes keep discussing with me on this until 1 am in the morning (as December was busy season for my current job, I work until 9-10 pm). My professors are nice: submitted all the recommandation letter really quickly (1-2days after sending email request) and are always saying, "best wishes to your application!". I am thankful for all they have done for me. Getting a bad result makes me feel that I wasted their time and let them down. I don't know how to share this news to my professors, although I do really want to talk to them and see want can I do to improve myself in the future. Feel free to give any advice about how to communicate the result with my family, my friends and my professors.