digital_cryptid

Just got accepted into NC State! I'm so happy to join the program next fall. Any neighborhood recommendations? I have an EV, but I've been told there are charging stations on campus. I'd like to rent a house or an apartment.

I cannot stop checking my email. I've been emailing the professors I want to work with just to make small talk and hoping they'll give me some kind of hint at a decision date. The last times I've applied, I've still been quite nervous. That said, this is such a pivotal moment in my life and in my career. If I don't get in, I have a job lined up to advise a college newspaper. I do this job in a temporary capacity right now and I love it, but my passion is research and I know that the things I want to do, not having a PhD is going to hold me back. If I don't get in, I'm not going to keep living my life in limbo like I have for the past three years. I want to settle somewhere. I'm tired of feeling like I can't plant my feet anywhere, like there is no point unpacking moving boxes because everything has been so temporary. I work three jobs right now, all contract work because I'm not able to be full-time without this damn doctorates. If I get a yes, I can move, settle for 4-5 years, and start toward the research career I want to do. If I get all no's, I buy a house here and wait another 5 years to try again. With so much of my future depending on this decision, I am having trouble simply getting up in the morning. I am anxious, fatigued, starving but too nauseous to eat. It's eating me alive and I can see how negatively this stress is impacting my health. I just want to know.