First off--CONGRATS ON THE ADMIT!! That's great! I'm sorry you didn't get the fellowship (especially if it would've made a big financial difference). i totally understand the fear, but remember in the end you can only attend 1 place anyways! plus, decision committees are so independent of one another, a rejection from one place really doesn't mean a rejection from another (which i understand can be hard to believe when we're in the middle of it). so don't stress/ get too down on yourself about hypothetical rejections you haven't recieved yet probably the most productive and comforting thing to do is think through your options and make sure you have contingency plans? like scouting out potential jobs if this cycle doesn't pan out? best of luck!!