Yeah, i think i just really need a win after the last couple of years. And i think we all pay too much attention to what institutions think of us anyway. In all likelihood, it's the not knowing that really makes it sting.
But I haven't been doing a good job of distracting myself, scholarship deadlines are looming and i'm up at 2:00 am filling them up. Otherwise I tend to daydream, so i don't really have the best insight.