Hey, I feel you! The first time I applied I got into an MA program. The second time I was waitlisted at 3 programs and then rejected from all 3. The third time I was waitlisted at 2 programs and then rejected from both (even after a whole prospective weekend for one of them). This year, I applied for the fourth time despite not having much hope and I received acceptances from 6 places!!! (UW, UNC, UMich, Duke, Cornell, and Brown). So all I can say is have patience and perseverance and if this is actually what you want to do, don't give up! Also, it is important to remember that this does not define you as a person or a scholar!! If you need wanna talk more about this, feel free to DM me!