thisphdwillkillme

Thank you. My topic was the commodification of Indigenous medicines (ayahuasca) through healing retreats offered in North America and the prevalence of sexual misconduct allegations at these retreats. I won't go into detail because at this moment my passion is completely depleted on this topic and on life lol

I am so so sorry too for your suffering. Just know you are not alone in this experience. I know it does not offer any tangible relief for you, but getting recommended for funding is amazing. You should really be proud of yourself. I do not know what I am going to do going forward either. Subconsciously I was holding onto SSHRC as a way forward.

Thank you for these words. Almost getting Vanier is amazing. And fuck FRQSC. I truly am putting every ounce of positive energy I have left into the universe for you for SSHRC.

Thanks guys. My topic is a bit risky for current academia so I was half expecting it but I also just really thought there would be a chance because I really truly know it is such an important topic. Just feeling so discouraged. It is so dehumanizing to put your heart and soul into something you genuinely feel is so important and be rated out of 12 and dismissed. It honestly felt worse than my worst heartbreak last night haha. I have not cried like that in so long. I did not even get wait list just a flat out hard no

Hey guys my last name is K and I got my results last night. I did not get it. It was a really dark night lol. I just wanted to share the stats for committee 5 in case someone hasn't. I am so happy for those who got it. Wishing good results for everyone in L-Z. This is such a stressful and lonely experience. Make sure to take care of yourselves throughout it. For committee 5: Applications: Fellowships Offered: Fellowships Not Offered: 111 47 (42.3%) 64 (57.7%)

CONGRATULATIONS from a fellow Alberta phd student!!! Do you mind sharing what the first letter of your last name is :))

no its not there for me

At least they thanked us for our patience 😶

Did everyone get this email?? I haven’t gotten it

If it makes you feel better I am in the same boat. I am already working part-time as a waitress in a lounge on top of academic duties and I am so burnt out.

lolol I was just gonna link this for you. congrats to everyone who is committee one celebrate the small victories

Hi everyone, I have been lurking this topic since October but I finally made an account now because I CANNOT TAKE IT ALONE ANYMORE. I think my blood is 50 percent nicotine and caffeine at this point. This last few days have been hell. I am pretty sure the batches will be split by committee. 1-3 tonight and 4-5 tomorrow. I am committee 5 :))))))))) going insane.