If you don't mind me asking, how many programs did you apply to last year? I am in a very similar situation. I am married with children and some of my family doesn't understand why at this point in my life should I get a PhD. While they don't understand, they are supportive. But the whole waiting game is frustrating. They don't understand that it's not an easy process. I will be finishing my Masters in May. So they think I should be fine. I have years of research experience. I have a 4.0 Masters GPA but my undergraduate GPA is low. I started my BS degree in 1996 but didn't finish until 2005 due to family issues. I definitely can relate to your anxiety!! I wish you the best of luck.