Yes *sigh*. Ive been feeling extremely negative about my chances of getting into any of the four ridiculously prestigious schools that i applied to (which are, for the record, berkeley, UCLA, Columbia and NYU). Rationally, it is entirely conceivable, if not positively likely, that I will be rejected across the board, not because my application is bad but simply because competition is astronomically high for all four. For a few weeks I berated myself for not having applied to any safety schools, but my measured conclusion is this: i applied to only the places I desperately wanted to go to. The enormity of a five-year PhD course is too significant to make any compromises on. I absolutely completely and utterly want to do this PhD but if this doesnt work out, life will lead me down another course, which is also not a compromise (just a different solution).
Maybe rejection will give me the courage to travel around the world being a freelance journalist. That's always been a little daydream of mine.
And then again, maybe, just maybe, i wont be rejected across the board!