It gets crazier. After the madness of what I posted above I've been told I'm in at URI (no surprise tbh) but that they are offering me funding (a suprise). All I know is that its a teaching assistantship and I'm hoping that its a full teaching assistantship and not half (halfs as good as none for me).
I'd got used to the idea of NOT going to grad school, got over being bummed about it, and was moving on. Now they've thrown this at me and I'm trying as hard as I can to NOT get excited over it because I'm waiting for the "we can only offer you a half assistantship" in the letter. I'm running it through my head trying to figure out the hidden meaning of the word "offer"! Its madness. Supposed to get a letter Monday officially but have been waiting since Tuesday for the grad director to email me with the full details.
So now I'm going round trying not to tell people, because I don't want to get all excited about it and get crushed if it all goes wrong, but I'm sitting here all anxious again. This whole experience has been absolutely brutal for my confidence, ego, and nerves. Talk about a rollercoaster ride.