Hi everyone!
I've been a long time lurker this entire fall/winter season until now....the waiting period...my anxieties are starting to get the best of me so I finally made an account and started posting so I can share my neuroticisms.
I have two top choices- I've gotten into one and am waiting on the other. The school I am waiting on is in the city I am currently in. I don't want to leave the city I am in because I love it so much and because I have a boyfriend who I care about greatly as well.
All things being equal, if I get into my other top choice, it is going to be absolutely impossible for me to choose programs. Some people will say "well won't it depend on what kind of funding offers you get?" but I am pretty sure if I get into my other top choice I will get a very comparable funding package. Both schools have excellent programs with professors I am deeply excited about working with.
The factor that is making all of this so much harder is the boyfriend. I love him a lot and would love for him to come with me wherever I go but he can't leave his job right now- well obviously anything is possible, but he has an excellent job and he just got a huge promotion and raise (which during an economy is impressive to say the least). We've already both decided we're not the kind of people who can do a long distance relationship. So if I don't get into my other top choice in my current city, I will be moving away.
So is it weird that instead of thinking about the pros and cons of the schools/departments, all I can think about is my relationship with him and whether or not it's going to end??? I know a while back there was a poll about the status of people's romantic situations and a short discussion of how it was helping/hurting the situation- I guess I just want to know if anyone else is in my situation :-(