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Eep, I'm sorry, it's the middle of the night and I can barely type straight. I definitely didn't mean to sound insincere, bc I'm not! I think the process is silly. And I know that's what I was telling myself when I expected to lose, and am reminding myself anyway now. This award is really not indicative of sole potential to do amazing research: we're all holding that potential, and we're all amazing to have applied. My award was in CS, amd since I'm female that means the bar was lower. My scores might have been lower than many who didnt get awards. That's weird and a little annoying, bc I won't know how I stacked up without the diversity angle. I'm still allowed to be aware it's a fairly arbitrary process, yes? Anyway, sorry if I stepped on toes!

Just got woken by phone beeping with the email. (From reading the last 10 pages, so glad I went to bed at 1am and missed the confusion from logins but no list, etc.) Scared to believe what email is telling my groggy brain, but... I seem to have gotten one!! Shocked and humbled and happy. Congrats to all the awardees and HMs! And remember for those who didn't - it's a rather arbitrary process, and you are all awesome!

The 400+ of us are proving too much for poor GradCafe. I'm starting to worry they'll wait until much closer till 5 AM this year. Maybe to make sure people find out from emails instead of the list online? Who knows. So annoying. Bedtime, with my phone set to beep on new emails...

OK, NSF. What's up with being slower than previous years? If you make me wait until 5AM like the maintenance message says, I will be even more sad, to not get to sleep between my rejection and work tomorrow....

Yes, I think this is definitely true, and is backed up by reading previous years' threads, where a higher-than-10% of regular posters seemed to win awards. Kinda sucks for those of us who don't, actually, because it's that little bit harder to remember just how hard it is to do. GradCafe can make it feel "normal" to win.

So that's nearly 3% of applicants? That's... really incredible.

Oh, heavens. I'd be dead by now. ;-)

LOL!! The thought has crossed my mind, too...

FastLane goes down at 11:00PM ET. The last two years it went back up (with the award and HM lists) at 1:00AM ET and 12:50AM ET respectively, with emails following around 20-30 minutes after that.

202 users currently active on this thread. In 2010 there were 12,000 applicants. That is an outrageous percentage of total applicants to achieve on a message board... EDIT: 218... At this curve, we'll bring GradCafe to its knees, and then who will we wait in eager anticipation with?

I honestly can't decide if I want to fast-forward the clock until at least 11pm.... or if I never want it to come because I actually just don't want to know.

Something tells me we're going to be answering this question all day. Previous pages of the thread will answer it too, but... 1.) Twice in 2009 (when there were 2 waves of awards), and in 2010, the announcements were made at 1:00 AM ET after FastLane went down for a pre-advertised "server maintenance" period at 11:00 PM ET the day before (a couple of hours before emails started going out and the spreadsheet went up on Fastlane). 2.) The second wave in 2009 and the 2010 awards were both on Tuesdays at 1:00 AM (i.e., late Monday night). [Yes, that was April 6 last year, but it was a Tuesday early-morning.] 3.) There is now a "server maintenance at 11:00PM ET tonight" message on FastLane. So yes, we are speculating with high confidence that it will be tonight.

Hey, currently there are 114 people on this thread and they give 2000 awards. We CAN all get great news! ;-)

I know, weird to think I'll wake up tomorrow and not have this thread to refresh constantly (at least, past the point where I know the outcomes for everyone - I'm cheering for all of us GradCafe addicts!). Next year is my last eligible, so I will be back, same place same time, only armed with more info on how to stress Broader Impacts in my essays...

It's an advisory on the main Fastlane page only, https://www.fastlane.nsf.gov/index.jsp