OnceAndFutureGrad

I found that my thesis was good and distracting - for the first draft. Now I'm staring at a hole-filled second draft and contemplating the futility of my existence and, oh yeah, doing patient insurance registration in the evenings, poorly. I just want this to be over!

I'm still waiting to hear from Cornell Medieval Studies. No reply to my e-mail but they've had my application since December 12. Cornell is my top choice/perfect fit so it's the one I'm most anxious about. According to the results here the three (!) acceptances all got a phone call, so now I'm obsessively checking my mobile along with my e-mail and the post box...argh...!

The hardest part of this process for me is how many people keep telling me "Don't worry, you'll get in everywhere you want to." Four rejections later, people are saying "Don't worry, you'll get in to the rest of your schools", and it's all I can do to scream "NICE TRY!!"

My freakout moment came when I got three rejections in two days which was rough enough, and then was told by Friend A that she was accepted by UC Berkeley and told by Friend B that he had an interview with Leeds. Now I love both Friend A and B, but I know for a fact that I have the better GPA, GRE, extracurriculars, you name it. They both told me the "oh don't worry you'll get in, if I got this then you're sure to!" line, but as it stands I'm still holding four rejections and not even a waitlist. Argh. I think the hardest part about the grad school application process is the jealousy that it breeds.