mareli77

Thank you all for your opinions, you all have giving me some ideas that actually sound doable.

This is my second quarter into a PhD program and I hate it. First of all English is not my first language and going straight from the bachelors level to a PhD program is pure horror. Although I am perfectly bilingual (that it is in regular English not graduate academia lexicon) I feel almost mute in class when I hear everyone speak in terms that are way higher than my vocab. I hate that in my classes almost everyone has already a masters, or they are in their 3rd year into the PhD, so how is that even fair for me? (in my undergrad I would always participate in all my classes all the time...but now I feel I can't compete with this people... how can I be placed in classes with people that have that much more experience on me literally? The reading pace is ridiculous (2 books a week per class, plus articles) and on top of that I just don't like my program. I basically applied to grad school because I couldn't find a job and I knew they would want me in their department, but I am finding that I don't like anything about academia. I don't want to be a faculty member EVER or work in research if anything I would just like to try to put up with this long enough to get a masters and then leave. My first quarter was a nightmare since I was going through divorce, and that's another thing my ex which is 3 years into their PhD program is still at the same school. Before we separated most people knew we were a couple and through our separation this person made it very public so now I feel like I almost don't ever want to be on campus, as according to this person I was the villain of the story. So as you all can see I have more against that for the program...so how can I make a clean getaway? Or should I stay at least until I get a masters? I am not kidding when I say I hate graduate school and everyone in it. I feel like if at least I would be studying what I like it might be different, but this is not what I want (heck I'm not even a feminist.). Any suggestions? plans of attack? Thank you all.