smith762

I wish I had some great advice to offer on this topic, but all I have is sympathy. I'm in my third semester of grad school and I feel the same way as many of the other commenters. I moved away from all of my friends to come to grad school and pursue the career I've been dreaming of since I was in high school. I honestly thought it would be great to explore a new city, make new friends that have similar interests, and get started in a profession that I was sure I would love. I have always been a very happy and content person, good at making friends and adapting to new situations. After 9 months of grad school, I don't even know who I am anymore. Every day is a huge struggle, I'm so exhausted every night from being in class all day with the same 24 people that I somehow have nothing in common with and can't connect with even though we're all around the same age and have a huge shared interest. I just feel depressed and angry at everything now, I don't even care about my future profession or making friends. If it wasn't for my boyfriend, who is an amazing support system, I don't think I could get out of bed in the morning to be honest. I think it's insane that so many people live this way, basically zombies just going through the motions of their lives- I never thought I would be one of those people. I've tried to pull myself out of this hole. I work out every day, eat very healthy, limit my caffeine, get as much sleep as possible, try to go out and do things I used to enjoy when I have time, etc., but nothing makes me feel any better. I can't imagine how I will get through the next 2 years of my program, and even if I do, I wonder if my life after grad school could possibly be good enough to make all this worth it. I feel like grad school is taking away everything I liked about myself and my life and I don't know what to do about it. Has anyone else felt like this and found a way to overcome it?