Hey guys,
It's been a long time since I called out to you on this forum asking if anyone had ever experienced what I did with regards to writing the MA thesis. First off, just knowing that other people had been going through the same as me meant a whole lot. Looking back, that season was one of the hardest thus far in life. In retrospect I see how it consumed my whole life and drained me of anything good, I never thought writing could do that to me! I actually think that I wrestled in my thoughts with the idea that I could not do it, that I am not smart and should not be writing an MA thesis, just really demotivating myself, which - as we all know - is not the best way to start such a big task.
All that being said though, I am happy to announce that I actually finished my thesis December 2014, and received my MA degree in TEFL in January 2015! (If anyone ever reads this:) Why did it take so long? Well, for starters, I got a job as a language teacher before the thesis was done, and I somehow though that "it'll take a couple of months getting into the new job, and then I'll finish off the thesis!" Probably not the wisest decision of my life. Although working was good in many ways, I always had this weight on my shoulders that I couldn't shrug off; I knew I HAD to finish the thesis. So after over three years of never really relaxing but always either working (what felt like more than) full time with teacher things (it takes a whole lot longer than a couple of months to get into it) and the thesis, I was finally done. And what do you know, last week I just got offered a new job at a better school than the one I am currently working at. All this despite of the fact that I was not able to work with the thesis the way I planned, which resulted in the thesis itself being less than I imagined, but that does not really matter. I guess what I'm trying to say is that if I could do it, so can you (again, if anyone ever reads this), just DON'T GIVE UP. And please, allow yourself to live even when you feel like you never deserve a break. No break will break you (I just made that up). No but really, good enough is great, especially when you are in a place where not finishing something is about to break you as a person. A thesis, or whatever, can be perfect in your imagination, but don't let the idea of perfect keep you from writing things that are less than perfect. You are not your thesis. You are so much more.
Ok, so just wanted to say thanks to those who showed support when I posted this some years ago. It really made a difference, and I've come back many times to read it again. Thanks!