The Results

[mostlygoo]

It's just such a weird thing to feel obsessed by the results board. I know it's been discussed before but just putting it out there.

On the one hand it's clearly masochistic. Because an acceptance, if it's gonna come, isn't coming here at Grad Cafe. So it's reading tea leaves but the leaves are almost always saying sad things. Interviews already posted for my program? I didn't get one, so must mean a rejection is coming. Rejections already posted?  Maybe I'm safe, or maybe I'm just in the next wave. Acceptances posted?  I'd better check my email, except I'm already checking a thousand times a day, so...  Waitlists posted?  What does *that* mean and how can it be good if it's still radio silence on my end?  Nothing posted except "Ignore waitlist has anybody heard froms"? Just means everybody else is losing it too.

On the other hand everything feels like a story, and I love that.  Even (maybe especially) when there's no comment attached. I like seeing acceptances because I'm imagining how much someone's life just changed or may be about to change.  I feel for the rejected because I've been there (a lot). I even feel for the "ignore wait list has anybody heard froms" because I get it.

Anyway, weird. Not helpful in most every way, but full of stories.  (And I know I'm just trying to justify my own obsession to myself. But still, kinda true.)

Edited to add: I also love that I'm getting to know all these grad specialities I never knew existed, like Animal Sexual Stimulation. 

Edited January 30, 2022 by postmodern