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Haha, I'll confess that I sometimes still check. It can be a bit difficult not to. But I don't check it 20 times a day like I was for a while. Maybe every few days. 
Is it just since you got the admit? That's kinda what I'm anticipating, not becoming completely apathetic, but bein far more relaxed about the process and outcome. I'm more relaxed already since I got a recruitment invite.
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I obsessed for a bit, but I've forced myself to stop looking at search results. I realized that absolutely no good could come of it. At best I won't learn anything, but I'm likely to see that other people had gotten accepted or gotten interviews to my schools and it would just ruin my day. The experience that forced me to stop was that I had been obsessively checking results and after seeing one of my schools had sent out a bunch of interviews, I got seriously depressed for about a week. I had completely written the school off, as well as my chances at any other school. Then out of the blue I got a phone interview request from this school, and now I'm invited to visit. Yeah, I don't want to have that experience again. Having the information is not worth the anxiety. I'll find out when they've made MY decision.

 

This is the terrifying next step.  None of my schools have announced in any appreciable why yet.  If I could be safely placed in a medical coma for the next week or two, I think it would prevent so much stress injury to my heart that I might actually have a longer lifespan. 

 

Haha, I'll confess that I sometimes still check. It can be a bit difficult not to. But I don't check it 20 times a day like I was for a while. Maybe every few days. 

 

I really wish I could bring myself to stop looking!  But the only thing that will really give me the confidence to stop is to get one admit.  If the first school I hear from is an acceptance, getting rejected at the subsequent 8 will be cake.  If it's the other way around, might as well put me down for a heart and liver transplant.

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  • 3 weeks later...

Wow, do I ever feel what this person felt when they wrote this. 

 

Hello.  My handle is wemayet, and I am a GradCafe "search results" junkie.

 

It all started in the fall, when I was looking for application advice.  I figured a little wouldn't hurt, you know?  It didn't take long before I was spending most, then all, of my spare time reading forums.  It didn't seem like a bad trade off for all the good feelings I was getting from what I was taking in.  I grew to rely upon it.  I needed it to get through applications.  But even when applications were over, I still needed.  I tried to quit cold turkey, but found myself going back for more.  I think on purpose at some level, I had even lost my login for a while, hoping I'd forget.  Then one day, I saw it.  The first indication that someone from one of my schools had gotten an interview.  That taste brought me back.  Worse than before.  A great hunger inside of me, I needed the information.  On my tower, on my ipad, on my laptop... all browsers had a GradCafe tab.  I'd hit that refresh button... dozens of times... sometime dozens of times in one hour.  When I wake up, I reach for the nearest computerized device and hit refresh again and again.  I'm hoping to make it an hour without, for this first attempt to stop.

 

My handle is wemayet, and I am a GradCafe "search results" junkie. 

 

Now these are words of wisdown. "Let it be"

I'v

 

 

I obsessed for a bit, but I've forced myself to stop looking at search results. I realized that absolutely no good could come of it. At best I won't learn anything, but I'm likely to see that other people had gotten accepted or gotten interviews to my schools and it would just ruin my day. The experience that forced me to stop was that I had been obsessively checking results and after seeing one of my schools had sent out a bunch of interviews, I got seriously depressed for about a week. I had completely written the school off, as well as my chances at any other school. Then out of the blue I got a phone interview request from this school, and now I'm invited to visit. Yeah, I don't want to have that experience again. Having the information is not worth the anxiety. I'll find out when they've made MY decision.

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