Hi all -- long time lurker.
After accepting an offer from my undergrad institution, I'm beginning to get nervous about how I'll navigate the new dynamics, and I was hoping for some perspective from academics.
So:
I decided to accept an offer from my BA Alma Mater -- a top ten (in English) public university -- because, among other things, they courted me pretty heavily, offered me great money, and really are one of the best fit schools I applied to. I wasn't very methodical in my applications, and consequently applied to quite a few schools that are good and brand name, but not particularly suited to my interests. But as August approaches, I'm getting worried about how to gracefully transition back to the same university as a grad students. My worries are as follows:
I'll be entering the PhD program directly from undergrad with this app cycle year in between, so I'm afraid I'll still be fresh in the faculty's mind as a precocious undergrad rather than as the serious and (hopefully) capable grad student I want to present as.
I'm also not sure how to deal with already having established relationships with professors. Most of my strongest relationships are with new, up-and-coming profs, and I was told when I accepted the offer that a few of our department's academic rock stars were particularly struck with my application. I feel like this is a blessing because it means I can branch out in new directions and broaden my intellectual/academic horizons despite the fact that I'll be returning to the same cesspool, so to speak. Luckily the department is large, so there are many faculty members I've never even met, but how do I navigate classes, department social functions, picking advisers etc.? I feel this irrational aversion to taking any classes taught by profs who know me despite the fact that at least of few of these classes would be most rewarding. Should I avoid them, at least for the first semester until I've established myself?
Finally, my partner, who now attends a different PhD program attended this university for his MA, which is where we met. I got to know his MA cohort pretty well -- the rich and collaborative relationships between grad students in the department being another reason I chose this program -- and a few of the PhDs on a smile-and-wave basis. His cohort is gone, but I'll be returning to the program where I'll kind of know some of the students which feels so much more awkward to me than if I were simply a stranger. I know if I wanted a fresh start I should have accepted a different offer, but is there a way to make a return to old stomping grounds feel like a new adventure?
TL;DR, I guess I'm asking how to make the transition from the undergrad persona that many of the faculty and students knew me as to a more professional and collegial one?
Thanks for any input.