I'm really sorry to hear that. The teenage years are formative and these kinds of ideas are difficult to discard. Whenever I have been single, which is a few times, I always knew when I was not ready to date based on the kinds of people I would attract. When I was not ready to settle down, I would attract flakey artist types who did not want a commitment. Not until I was ready for a committed relationship, and secure as a single person, did I attract the right kind of person for me at that time. However, lots of folks aren't as intuitive as you and end up in really unhappy relationships. You have good and healthy standards of not wanting to be with something who resents your success This is a very mature and responsible point of view imho!