Ermm, I don't know how to out this into words.
The day before yesterday, I had a really bad interview. I already got an admission offer from my top choice, but I scheduled the interview dates earlier. So I didn't want to just bail out on the interviews, figured that would be disrespectful. I am an international student so all the interviews were teleconference ones. So, this program scheduled two interviews and one writing task for me (on-line). The first one went really well. The second one however went absolutely horrible. My internet connection decided to die on me minutes into the interview. Also there were tons of other technical difficulties in the middle of the interview, that left me bit shaky and all. So I got asked about the facilities I wanted to work with and about their research. I could not even answer that question properly. They asked if I read any of their publications, I said I did. ( like 3 days back). When asked, I couldn't remember anything from their papers. I was so ashamed of myself, I still am. Firstly, it was just a really bad day. Secondly, I didn't really think the second interview will be a formal one just like the first interview, so I didn't prep accordingly (as in going through the papers again). I am just super annoyed at myself. The facilities must be bashing their heads against their table because they even considered giving a shot to an applicant like myself.
Can anyone of you pls tell me how major of a fuck up it was? I am just super sad and this is all I could think about in the past two days.