In almost the same exact position as someone in a relationship of almost 2 years. I reminded myself that I applied to these programs in the past before I even met him and that this is what’s best for me. I don’t want to feel stuck here and turn down a chance I would be extremely lucky to have. He is not able to move with me currently but might be able to move in a year or so. It’s the best option for me to choose myself and the dreams I had before I even met him and he understands that. It will be hard but regardless what happens we will both do our best to make it work for each other.