I know how it feels having been an alternate to what I thought was my dream school .. two years in a row. Auditioning for grad school made me a much stronger artist / person. I finally got accepted to a program this year — one I never imagined I would be accepted to 2 years ago. After spending the weekend there I knew it was the place for me. I felt ready and I had something unique to contribute. We all cope with this in different ways but please keep focusing on the work, on yourself and what makes you unique; the unique perspective you bring into the world. If you approach this grueling process with a growth mindset.. it will happen!