I'm so sorry to hear that, sending lots of warmth your way. This is my second cycle with the apps, and I am such a ball of nerves, and a part of me can't understand why I've chosen to subject myself to this a second time - for the prospect of a decade of very little money, immense precarity, and a flailing job market at the end of all that. I really wish they could make this bit easier for us, at the very least. Like if they could just have a clear timeline, where we know what to expect when. My heart stops a little every time I get an email notification and I just don't understand why this whole process has to be shrouded in such secrecy and uncertainty