GirlattheHelm

Well, lots of results this week for a lot of places just because the process is winding down in April. I'm expecting an across the board rejection so I'm just busy filling out job applications right now - just waiting for the official declaration of my stupidity this week since, well, this is 'the' week.

This is just a high stress time and someone will get the scapegoat position no matter what. That's pretty much the deal - if we were to over analyze the high stress of these people we'd all turn on each other. Best to lelt the adcoms and schools be adequate targets - albeit vapid meaning ones.

I went through my mail. Amherst officially rejected me. Not a shock but it was kind of like Friday the Thirteenth having a laugh at me... Ah well, gonna go on with my day I have three and a half chances. I say half a chance because Montana lost my GRE scores so they might show up by Monday. If not that's an auto-rejection. No biggie - I'll get lucky to get into a Masters program, by the looks of things and completely regardless of the date the rejections arrive on.

Rejection from Amherst showed up. No big surprise but - ugh. Evil day.

Go do something else for awhile. It's way healthier than thinking about all this.

Ha! I've not seen the t-shirts but I have seen the stickers. Anyway, it's also good to know I have backup if pigeon shit hits the fan...

Hey, Emilee, I'm not eating hardly anything... though I'll wager I'll put on twenty before I force myself to sweat it off. Hell, if I get unanimously rejected I swear to god I'm going to buy a sheet cake, come home, and eat it myself. :shock:

Patient - I've seen this dwindle a lot. Empathetic - I really, seriously, cannot empathize with anyone else but those within the graduate admissions process right now. Not with the homeless, not with cute showcase kids who are dying of terminal illnesses, not anybody. I know that sounds awful but, christ, at least if you have a terminal illness you know the most likely freakin' outcome. Collected - I have never cried like a fucking big ole baby since I was one. It's really quite unbelievable how weepy I am when I'm alone. Motivated - I could get work done well. Now I just get some work done. Who am I to care, really? If this leads nowhere I suppose nobody is holding me accountable. Super Sweet & Compassionate - Right now I'm SUPER BITCH and quite a grouch to add. My friend is always mocking me when I snap at her and she'll respond, "That was a really crabby thing to say, I'm not gonna lie" or "Whoa! I'm the one who wakes up in the morning and plans on being an asshole; when did you take my job?" A Mild Marlboro Girl - Two and a half packs of Marlboro Red 100's later I'm more like the tough, well ridden roadhouse broad. Oh, and I used to eat food - rather than get butterflies and run around trying to avoid sustenance for fear of hurling.

Dear Girl at the Helm, I am afraid to inform you that we do not have the quantity nor quality of peanut butter or Marlboro Red 100's that could sustain a brute force bitch of your high caliber. As your application presents, your dedication is amazing and your work is astounding, yet our faculty cannot handle teaching someone like you. We simply do not have the facilities. However, a majority of the faculty do still wish to meet with you to have a few drinks, on us of course. Please feel free to contact us at any time to arrange a rendezvous. Much Love & Admiration, Such-and-Such Admissions Committee

Oh god, now I need to go sprinkle holy water on the spot where my landlord puts my mail and circle the house in salt. Why'd you go an highlight this fact? I'm going to be knocking on wood, taping rocking chairs to the floor, and punting black cats all day. Damn you, Seahistory!! :wink:

Intro: Hello, my name is Girl at the Helm, I am a possible Graduate admissions reject. About my Application Process: This is my first year applying. I am finishing up my BA in Anthropology as we speak; I will graduate in May, assuming I do not have a mental breakdown before then... Number of Schools Applied To: I applied to 6 Schools. See my signature. REJECTED: One Official from SUNY Binghamton & 2 Unofficial - one from UMass Amherst which all ready called out acceptances according to the rumor mill and then University of Montana which lost my GRE scores. The whole Montana issue is odd, since I sent them out the scores a month prior via ETS but they still never arrived - I emailed copy of official receipt to Montana with no response; sent two new official score reports but they may not be received in time for review which means my application will be tossed. What Went Wrong?My god awful GRE scores. Will I apply Next Year? Maybe. I might apply next year if all my proverbial ducks are in order; retake the GRE the maximum number of times I can in a year. But then again I might not if circumstances change dramatically and I must stay in the working world. What will I do in my year off/the rest of your life if I am totally rejected? Ride horses. Drink heavily. Read a lot. Work a ton... and just have a life for once. What if I get in somewhere? I might pass out, but that'll just be the initial response.

I get one official rejection last week(ish) and I'm a basket case. First, the letter was sent to my mother; but I found out online. Then my computer gets an email update and I get a copy of the letter in my email. Only then does my mother mail me the fucking official letter - which is on my doorstep as we speak and I can't bring myself to pick it up. I have been officially rejected by SUNY Binghamton four times in the last two weeks. It's haunting me in the waking hours... :shock:

I might sleep through it. Hibernation sounds easier than doing anything...

Not really an issue as far as I see it. I could be wrong; but it's not a disaster if you take a lighter load for a semester. If you take an academic semester off, however, you'll want to address that kind of stuff in your statement of purpose/letter of intent.

Yeah, it helps actually. I also know Binghamton has a really good Anthropology Program. I'm hoping I get accepted to an MA somewhere (UVM!!) without even funding. Maybe...

Exactly.

I've been chain smoking lately. ... I'll take anything I can get at this point, really.

We have 2 barn cats and one 'mistake'. I consider him more like a dog - he's huge. They are all barn cats and not allowed in the 'house' but they are still part of the family: Dirty Face, The No-Name Cat, and Fluff-O

Good luck!!

MDLee, is it the caffeine?

I'm right there with all of you. I'm in the midst of what I think is the biggest depression of my life. I don't think I can look forwards to ever doing something like this again. I can't bring myself to write up my resume though; the defeat is near but so far away yet (or so I hope!). I don't know what my chances are right now but I am so hoping I get in somewhere. *Shudder*

Breathe...

Actually, I think I'm too selective...

Well, I date older guys so it doesn't matter as much. But I always like when I'm out on a date and, depending on how hard I've worked, I gauge my looks by the waiter or waitress commentary such as, "I need to see ID" or "It's okay, Ma'am, let me get that for you..." I'm like, "What happened to 'Miss'?!" I'm 22-ish for fuck sake!! The variations should not be conclusive to how much foundation I used to fill in the cracks! And, no, I am not Medusa, but for someone in my 20's I'm close to falling apart; I thank graduate school applications and thesis papers for this and and absolutely devastated sex life. :shock:

Much thanks, GravityGirl. This whole thing is awful and I'm worried that my GRE's mean I won't get into a graduate program. I tried to take them twice and couldn't make the test due to 1.) A medical emergency then 2.) Continuation of medical emergency (surgery). Upon my actual taking of the GRE I was overworked, psyched out, and in a bad place. But I had to get the scores to apply. It was awful. Five months of studying flushed down the toilet alongside thousands of dollars, a 3.9GPA in my major, a 3.73 overall, fabulous research work, field school, great LOR, awesome SOP, and work experience. Watching all that whirl down the crapper for a score under 1000 ... What?! Where did the Kaplan course do me wrong? I couldn't finish the verbal section and I was doing okay in the quantitative? Holy mother of god... I did better on math than on verbal!?! (And, boys and girls, I TANKED on my verbal - then got a 5 on the AW). But I still have hope! Futile or not, it is there - willing to make me feel like shit if this rubs me raw. And, if not, Plan B will attempt to keep me from utterly crumbling.