judehermes

By email, from Rachel H. yummers88: Applied to University of Essex.

I know, but am not feeling hopeful about the grant coming through. I'm going to take a break from the forums for a little while. Good luck to everyone!

Just heard. I am an alternate. Fuck fuck fuck.

Thanks for the info. Looks like it's the fulbright or nothing for me.

I wonder if minor character has heard from Germany yet? He applied to write a novel in Kassel (if I'm remembering correctly) and it looked really interesting.

Congrats! And thank you for posting the email too.

dgrollmus, I wake up with full-blown tummy problems because I have so much anxiety. I'm glad I'm not the only one who feels like they're going fully insane. Thankfully, no vivid dreams about fulbright yesterday although vivid dreams abound about other things. Looking at past spreadsheets, the UKers should know by the 3/15 or 3/16 at the latest, but jesus if we don't hear by then I don't know how I'm going to cope this weekend. The thing is, if I get the Fulbright, I can research. I can spend a year on what I have to do. I can progress in my program. I can finish. I can write. I can get out of the department that refuses to fund me. I can show them that I'm worthy of their consideration. If I don't get it, I have to teach for another year. I will have to wait another year to research and to write. And I will get passed over for funding again because they don't care if you're finalist, they care only for winners. I will have to go through this process next year all over again. And I'm not getting any younger. It's enough not already knowing what you're going to do past May. But this crushing feeling of anxiety that comes with knowing this email might change the entire trajectory of your career...it's all a little too much sometimes.

Congrats! Five months in Germany sounds stupendous. This forum seems to simultaneously ratchet up the anxiety and provide solace. I'm glad you found it more comforting than not.

Bad dream again, this time at 6:45 am. I check my iPhone for emails and there it is: "Fulbright Application." I open it and...it's clearly not an acceptance letter, but it doesn't quite read like a rejection letter and it ends up making no sense. I wake up feeling queasy. You know, at this point, I don't care what I get now. I just want this goddamned process to be over. I want to move on with my fucking life.

It's our spring break right now!

Well, I haven't heard anything. So I'm going to assume I didn't get it.

Hey everyone, I've read redArcher's proposal and statement (both very good!) and am curious to read others as well! The problem is that I have limited email invites, so I can't contact all of you (who've expressed interest in sharing your work) individually. If you would like to send me yours, I would be more than happy to read it and share my thoughts. It is sort of a stress-free activity to pass the time. Here is my statement and proposal: http://www.faedra.com/fulbright-application.html

Just had this conversation with a friend of mine over google chat. My friend was awarded a UK Fulbright (full grant) in 2010: Me: when in march did you get your email from fulbright? Friend: I heard on March 23, but from what I've heard the timing can vary considerably - you heard about the interviews a full 2 weeks before I did. That said, I ended up having to wait 4 weeks between the interview and the decision (although they had promised two) so I wouldn't worry about it yet. So there you go.

So we shouldn't expect anything on the weekend, right? Monday it is then. ::sigh::

CrazyLady-- I have nothing in my inbox! GAHHHHHH! (congrats!) ((we're also in contention for different types of Fulbrights, though, because you're a professor, right?)) (((I feel like I'm going crazy, 1CrazyLady)))