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Is there anything I can actually now do about it, considering I have started, or am I going to have to eat my regrets and live with it(for the rest of my life?) I started as a first year this year at a top 20 law school. Its not(yet) mindnumbingly intense, but some days it gets close. I chose to live at home for a combination of financial and personal reasons, and due to that I have to wake up no later than 7am most days of the week to commute to school. The commute is 2 hrs both ways, minimum, and sometimes more than that. Thankfully, I'm fairly efficient(so far) with my work, and manage to take only 3-4 hrs per subject per week for normal class reading. Writing assignments and such add more hours. I registered with this forum last year as I was applying for the Boren Scholarship. I was rejected, depressed, and eventually convinced myself that I had no right to take a year off for no good (and to my mind, no good was no super prestigious reason-thus, short of Boren, TFA, or the equivalent, it was no good) reason, and basically forced myself to go considering I did have a prestigious acceptance sitting. Now that our school is giving seminars on getting employment, and emphasizing stuff like "you gotta prepare for what job you want NOW", "grades are PARAMOUNT", and the like, I'm getting more stressed as to starting law school immediately. This is not to say I don't enjoy the intellectual experience-my professors are brilliant, deep thinkers, but approachable, the myriad of experiences open to first year students through both the school and the mentors are wonderful(and seemingly never ending), and it is nice, from an intellectual standpoint, to consider myself as being accomplished like that by the time I'm a third year. However, I still can't help the small part of me which, every time they mention the timeline of what summer jobs we should be striving for, when we should apply for clerkships, and the like, to feel like a part of me is dying a bit inside. I had thought I could have at least the summers to travel and play around, or, if not that, the FIRST summer at least, but everything is planned down to the letter with research positions you should be aiming for first, then summer associate jobs the next summer, that it feels like I will have no more freedom to randomly BE anymore-all will be sacrificed to the legal employment Gods. On the other hand, my personality is that of a competitive nutjob. I'd sooner land myself in the hospital for mental problems than LOSE, on almost anything, so hopefully nobody suggests dropping out-because I'm not going to take that option, no matter what. I'm just wondering if people, perhaps specifically law people, had any experiences similar to this? Did you screw it with the school's suggestion that you MUST get a summer job, go travel instead, and still do well? Did you take a marvelous bar trip? Did you for some reason not start working after graduation, and uh, did something like teach English abroad but after...graduation? I'm wondering if any of these things are possible, or if I don't do as the school says and GUN it then I will be unemployed and nose deep in debt by graduation.

Didn't get it. Not even surprised. Congratulations to all recipients.

ahaha, thanks to all three of you that posted. Too bad that means the prolonging continues...

So if you didn't get that email that just went out, does that mean you're rejected? Or was the email just for fellowship and not scholarship.

Give me my rejection letter already. They knew since not sending me that budget email that I wouldn't be getting it, why they make me wait till now I cannot fathom...

Man, rejection letter, where are you and why are you taking so long? As I didnt get the budget email, and based on the statistics I've been seeing, I have no reason to hope.

Really? If so that WOULD explain why I got an email which said questions are on case by case basis only, and why someone else on the facebook page also got the same answer to the same question.

Rejected and its no surprise. Good luck to those who made it!

See, exactly why there is no hope left

Yea I don't think it means anything other than that the person who answered my email was out of the emailing loop. I kind of just wish they'd stop trolling us who didn't get the appropriate email and tell us we're already out of the running.

This is weird, I too emailed a Boren person and they responded that Dear Grace, We send out emails to applicants for whom we have questions. We have not yet sent any emails asking for budget updates to any Boren Scholarship applicants. Best, Aimee Hutton Program Manager Boren Scholarships Institute of International Education 1400 K St. NW Suite 700 Washington, DC 20005 1-800-618-NSEP www.borenawards.org ... .......

That's depressing. Good luck to those who got the email I guess its time to stop hoping.

Scholarship applicant for Mandarin, Mainland China. (located in California). Didn't get anything and it doesn't seem to be looking good. Shouldn't Arizona and California be grouped together into the same Southwest region? A few posts earlier an Arizona applicant got an email. Also if it were grouped by worldwide region, Middle East Scholarship applicant has gotten an email, as well Asia ones-South Korea, Taiwan. =/

Gah 2 fellowship applicants with budget update emails. I'm also a scholarship applicant and I'm hoping they don't all go out at once too, or at least not all at once for both types.

Applied! But weren't interviews being scheduled by this point last year already? Seeing as how I haven't heard a THING I doubt there's much hope for me.