Happy Black Friday to all,
This is my dillema,
I got accepted into mid-tier chemistry program however i really wanted to do material science so I ellected to affiliate ( join) a huge lab of 40+ people in a BME program that is currenlty ranked 3rd in the nation in the same school, hence i am sort of in two programs. in chenmistry, we are expected to teach 5 diffent sections of labs ( mine is org chem II), and take classes , no research your first year. in BME, you get accepted into the lab right away and your PI pays for you, so you are expected to do research while taking two classes. Because i am in these to program I ended taking classes, doing research and teaching. this resulted in be falling way below my class average in exams. I catch myself I stopped doing research so i can focus on my classes however I am still failing.I think my continous failure is due to these reasons
1. my chem class is way over my head and the materials we learn in class does not correlate with the book.
2. I am playig catch up in my engineering class since i have never taken any engineering classes in undergrad
3. 90% of my students want to go to medical school so they are all very demanding especially when it comes to grading. I answer alot of e-mails in a day regarding labs we performed in class.
4. I feel very lonely ( i am a minority in a PWI).
I personally do not want to get kicked out, what do i do. How can convince my professor that i can handle the work load? How do i approach my PI, who is teaching my engineering class (he is not really a people person)?
P.S i graduated summa cum laude, received many competitive awards for research in undergrad, was accepted to top tier chem. programs etc.