So I just finished a Skype interview and I am literally shaking and on the verge of tears. I've had very bad luck with all my programs. This is the third year I'm applying to PhD programs. I can't do it again. Last year I was waitlisted and ultimately rejected from one of my top choice schools. This year with a better application and a professor interested in working with me (who even looked over my SOP beforehand) I was completely rejected! No waitlist. I'm still waiting to hear from 4 schools but who knows where that's going.
So when I got this email from my Master's department about a new erasmus joint program in legal psychology I checked it out. It's this super interesting program that combines psychology, crime and law and it's hosted by 3 universities: U. Portsmouth, U Gothenburg (Sweden) and Maastrict U. (Netherlands). I had about a week to pick a topic from the list of options and write a "full" research proposal. They interviewed me today and I feel like I completely bombed the whole thing. Nervous as fu*k. Words did not translate from my brain to my mouth. And they want to know everything of course, how am I going to do this, where am I going to get the population to sample, what are all my independent and dependent variables...
Granted I realize this should be relatively knowable information for a proposal but ..ehh...I had less than a week to do research and write the damn thing. I have the generalizations in my head about it but, isn't this the sorts of things I'm to figure out with the guidance of the professors? I'm sure they completely saw me flounder and screw everything up. I will find out in a week if I was accepted, waitlisted or rejected.