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https://docs.google.com/spreadsheet/ccc?key=0AsJrSSHnssqFdHNPell4VVZwWDgtWUpQcTVVeWM0bWc&usp=sharing#gid=1 As you wish!

My FPA just said TODAY. He said "just hang in there. You'll know." Not sure how to read that but he's not saying anything.

^what, are you serious? Did you hear from an FPA? I just got an email from a student. HEART STOPPED.

I think people have said the email is entitled something like "You Application Status" or something.

They want to wait until they don't have to answer the phones anymore. You gotta think like a bureaucrat!

30 minutes!

Secret_ninja, I'm opening it whenever it comes. No need to further prolong my agony. I am prepared for the worst. I have my boyfriend and my dog here. I'm home and feeling okay. It won't change much to wait.

Cool. Also I see you got into the MPH at WashU. Good for you! That program was just starting off when I was in application process for my PhD. I contemplated it. Wash is such a beautiful school. It is an architectural beauty like Indiana. Reminds me of home a bit.

Crazy! What in? ETA or full grant? Good luck!

Aww, thank you mojodreams. It's a topic rarely discussed and while it has complicated my life a bit, I live pretty happily with a good support system and meds. I know it affects almost everyone once in grad school, though. Most of our department is in therapy and that's a good thing, I think! Also, I like your name. We had a pony named Mojo growing up. He was a wily little thing. I miss him sometimes.

Yay! We just had some of that here the other night. Bell's is our fave place. We visited over Thanksgiving and it was like paradise for the BF who'd never been that way. If you like Stouts, the Expedition is effing amazing. Totally worth the price. I brought the Java Stout to a gathering of Brewmeisters for various tasting contests and won a prize with it, too.

I don't think it's crass at all. I sent a similar email to UNL when I was comparing their offer to my current institution. They first didn't talk at all about funding so I sent an email similar to that one. They responded positively and offered me a specific fellowship (award letters hadn't gone out yet, apparently). The offer still wasn't as good at this one, so I called and tried. They offered me something else but it just wasn't enough and I went with this one. It's about playing the game. And, honestly, this department had a better focus.

Congrats, Bursting at the seems. Hmmm, Yeti is definitely good beer. The BF got a winter ESB. We're in MO, so we have a lot of access to local stuff. And by MO, I mean NOT in STL which, outside of Schafly, has terrible beer selections. The BF is secretly wanting me to get a job at a school in MI which has an amazing Canadian program to be close to Bell's Brewery. Yes, we are making life plans surrounding beer and wine. It's also near great wines. Michigan is where I ride my bike to in the summer and where I grew up spending time at the shore. It's my favorite state by far.

Yeah, my BF has brewing experience and we are craft beer addicts. I have two extra stouts (limited release from Schafly) in there regardless. If I do well, though, we might go out and pick up some young's chocolate stout for me. Hell, even if I don't, I might want some.

I feel you on this. I worry about disappointing my committee - one member used to be on the Fulbright committee part of the review for Canada (where I am applying) - and my FPA who has been amazing throughout this whole thing as well as the university that sponsored me. They welcomed me with open arms and have helped me so much. I even got a Christmas e-card from one of the people sponsoring me. It's been an amazing, humbling experience. That's what I will take away no matter what, I guess. Fulbright_to_India, I am so sorry for the issues you have had. What a bad situation. However, just know that in some way something good will happen and it will all somehow work out. I promise you that. I was broken up with, got really ill, and entered severe depression my senior year of college while in the application process. But really, it was the best thing. The relationship was a bad one, I would have married the wrong person, and better things came about. I got into a great program and have had amazing opportunities since landing here. I will be keeping you in my thoughts today.

I wish I did because I wouldn't have proposed a topic for a Fulbright grant at all! I study bureaucrats for a living!

Kelsey, you are brave to say yes. I would be ready to have a silent meltdown haha. I can't deal with my parents in times like this. I usually just start crying, for fear I will disappoint them - this is after I have lived alone for HOW many years?! I blame Catholic guilt.

Mojodreams, I feel you. But like my BF said to me tonight "You know nothing! Stop saying that!" He is going to get me ice cream later because he loves me. I told him he didn't need to but he insists. I'm curled up with a glass of wine, feeling both excited and sad about tomorrow.

Yup!

Mine is: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SgRJwxvvDr8

Yes and yes. I have good local mozz stocked to snack on about that time tomorrow, too. I'm so nervous that eating has been hard. I love to cool but then eating is tedious. Good luck!

I am just applying for a full grant. The institution I have chosen (well, really a department and a research centre at the same uni) has said it will try to nail down funding for me if I don't get it. The contact up there also said a prof that commutes from far away but has an apartment in the city may let me stay with them and conduct interviews. They have also promised office space for however long I choose to stay. I thought it sounded good. If that doesn't work out and I can get a visa for at least part of the year, they may also wrestle up some other funding. It's not the end of the line. It's just the easiest way. Basically, I would be responsible for food/travel costs (which is just me driving up there). I am luckier than most who have to fly!

Kbui, congrats on those others and good luck! Cewarren, yeah. I plan on being on the couch with my bf when the results come. And then depending on how I feel, we may go out to dinner. I would like to go out for drinks but I have to teach my 9 am the next day.

I have a fellowship and it's something from the university for very competitive incoming grad students. It's independent of my stipend. I get it for all years but it's just an incentive sort of thing I got. Some schools nominate outstanding incoming students if the university has some opportunities.

I'm making chicken tikka tonight and trying to be kind to myself. Will try to put some lectures together later but there are really no guarantees I will get anything done until Tuesday.