Karakiz, though I'm an English major, I can relate to your plight. If possible, I like to use the negative or abusive statements that some professors spew as motivation to achieve my goals. When I first took the GRE, I made a 620 on the verbal, which I was pretty happy with since I'd been out of school for over a year. When I told my old advisor this, he recommended that I not hold my breath waiting to see if I could get into my first choice school. Alas, he was right at that point, but I did get into a school that offered me a non-teaching fellowship. At this school, I've learned a great deal and really focused my long term goals. I retook the GRE and made a 720 on the verbal. Now, I think I'm a much stronger candidate. Although, come about half way through February, we shall see.
Last semester, when I was gathering materials to to apply to PhD programs, I asked several professors within my subfield to write letters of recommendation for me. They were all more than happy to do so. Over the break I sent these profs all my materials (CV, Writing Sample, and SoP), and all but one responded. I sent another e-mail to this professor and still nothing. Finally when classes reconvened this semester I approached him. He said that he didn't receive any of my e-mails. So I resent my credentials and links to all the online LOR forms. I asked him the next week if he got my e-mail. He acted very bothered that I should even check, becoming short with me and brushing me off. So, I gave him some space. Well, the deadline for the schools that he was writing these letter for was Jan 15. On the 15th, I saw this professor, but I didn't want to annoy him any further, even though I hadn't received any confirmations saying he submitted even one letter. Finally, yesterday I approached him and told him that he didn't need to worry about submitting any of the letters. He asked me why, so I told him that my applications were all due last week, and not to worry about it because they were all complete. He became quiet, then profusely apologized for "fucking up;" after that, even though he knew that I'd already submitted my applications, he said that he saw some really obvious errors with my writing sample, and proceeded to tell me what they were. This was after two other professors went over the sample, and after a friend and I workshopped on more than one occasion. I'm not sure if this was to prove that he hadn't blown me off, or to hurt my feelings. Either way, I'm no longer going to take this professor.
Here's to not letting our dreams be dashed by the douche-y!