One word... I WANT TO CRY!
I just received three rejections in a row... Yes, they were a few of my top choices, I'm a US citizen who studied away from the States, I saw them coming, but it hurts. I have a strong research background within and out of international research programs, 2 manuscripts submitted, strong LOR (I tried to get them from co-authors and co-workers all over the world)... but am losing hope. I'm devastated by the anxiety. I want to go back to the States and if I don't get accepted... ugh It just drives me crazy that I've already received three no's. I have couple of schools that I HAD confidence in... I've been personally and academically close with a POI at one, the program's Dean himself is writing a LOR for me at one, and I've had two informal interviews with another. But you never know how it will turn out to be. That's what makes me insane. The fact that I have a program that I BELIEVE will accept me. They could just go "nah you know what, she's not good enough" and dump me in the rejection basket.
Ahhh.... nice to let go of my depressing thoughts. Thanks for the thread.