Hey don't beat yourself up ❤️ That's hypocritical of me to say since I'm panicking about the whole thing, but hey:
Before graduating I talked to a graduate student at my undergrad institution (which has a one of the top programs for the field he was in). He got in after his third cycle of graduate applications. He got rejected to his back up schools but got acceptances at this school and Harvard. He was reluctant, but decided to go to my undergrad institution, which he said was one of the best decisions he made. He loves his cohort, he loves the professors, he's gotten to speak at lots of conferences and publish a lot of articles even in his first couple years of a Ph.D. program (which, given that American Ph.D.'s take about 6 years and people don't start their dissertation until about the 3rd year, is rather impressive).
Honestly, even though all of us are probably perfectionists, there's only so much we can criticize about ourselves in this process. It's so selective, especially for the humanities, that there is a huge degree of arbitrariness to the application process that we didn't experience when going to elite undergrad institutions. Some professors that run the admissions process at the Russell Group in the UK have even talked about how they have heavily discredited an applicant for having a typo on their personal statement. As someone who has dyslexia, that's terrifying for me lol. As you've probably already seen in the results search, even people with multiple publications get rejected. When the majority (almost all) of the applicant pool are geniuses in the field, sometimes admissions decisions come down to relatively trivial factors, which sucks, but can also be encouraging if you need to apply next cycle (which will probably be the case for me since I had a lot of personal stress during this whole process and didn't get to focus as much on my personal statements).
Don't be so quick to dismiss other institutions you may get acceptances from. Go visit their program if you get invited--you may just find that it was a much better fit than you thought after all.