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Welcome @MFAhopeful57, and if you need to vent, we're all here to be supportive listeners.

I feel more excited for anyone else’s decision other than my own. It’s easier to live vicariously through others than it is to have adcoms decide my future.

If I had heard from anywhere already this wouldn’t be nearly as bad, but it’s between Syracuse and WashU for first notification for me. I’m really bad at waiting...

I really hope so too. On Friday night they’re getting snow for a long time which would push notifications back to February again.

At least with gradcafe we aren’t total strangers (even if we only know each other online). We all freaked out together and consoled each other in return. I’m really bad at meeting people because anxiety, but hopefully it works out. No one I know in person is applying this year, and they said maybe to next year. You guys are kind of the only ones who I can talk to about this stuff because no one else gets it.

It seems that there was a wicked snowstorm last year that caused the results to be that late, they’re usually in late late January. And I really hope I get into a school with someone from gradcafe so I have someone to talk to.

I’m always scared I’m gonna see Syracuse acceptances without ever getting anything. I’m starting to think I really want to go to Syracuse (or Cornell).

It sounds like you have a really kind and supportive sister! Thanks for sharing her wisdom with us.

I’m glad you’re getting some writing done too. It’s only after I completely forget that I’ve got anything else to do (getting so far in the zone I forget how to leave), that I can write a poem. I can’t wait until this is over. On the other hand, I’ve got a great new poem written and it’s not a sad poem.

That’s very true. I wouldn’t want to go anywhere I didn’t like.

I’m so tired and in pain that I’ll just sleep it off. Update: in too much pain to sleep

My anxiety hit a peak this last hour and I nearly had a full blown panic attack. It wasn’t over this, but the stress from waiting contributed.

I managed to get a poem started and finished in a place I never write, a Starbucks. I’m officially that writer haha. How’s everyone holding up?

Hey, the adcoms might not forget that one. I hope the adcoms forget/ignore my sentence structures basically all being the same in my second poem. That’s the problem child in the bunch of ten. I remember being so proud of that poem too haha. Another acceptance to Ohio State on the results page.

Regardless of if it does work out or not, we will all still be here supporting you. Don’t feel pressured either way though.

Update, read my sample, and I feel better about most of it. The only thing I regret is the order of some of the poems but it’s fine, it’s not a bad progression. I’m so surprised that I don’t feel terrible right now. Thank goodness. Also thanks @buckles and @MFALongshot for getting back to me so quickly!

Guys, I think I wanna do something crazy. I’m thinking of reading my writing sample. I know this will most likely hurt me, but it might help me to remember the things I like about my poetry. Thoughts?

Maybe we shouldn’t worry if our writing says something or not. I don’t know if this is going to help any of us be any less worried. Also I got a call from a 315 (Syracuse) number and was so excited only to find it a spam call. Fml.

So is there anyone else in the low self esteem boat with me? All of my recommenders (all have MFAs, one is a NYT best selling author) and everyone who has read my material thinks I’ll get in somewhere, unfortunately I don’t share the same sentiment. It’s kind of like impostor syndrome but I haven’t even had the luxury of getting in yet.

Yeah, there’s that too, man fiction writers do have it bad.

Yikes, I feel bad for all the fiction people having to worry about what perspectives to write in. I’m not sure if there’s an equivalent for the poetry people. Maybe lyric versus narrative versus dramatic. I definitely don’t write lyric poetry.

Yeah that’s definitely a possibility I didn’t consider. Now I’m not as keen to check my portals.

Big mood @feralgrad. I got way too excited at UNLV changing my status from submitted to Under departmental review. This happened like two weeks ago (deadline was yesterday) and I’m still a little shook.

It’s not that I haven’t written anything at all, but I’ve only been writing down ideas. I’ve come full circle and now I’m too stressed to do very much besides worry in various ways.

My worrying will get better if I get accepted anywhere. At least having that insurance will definitely help. I know my anxiety is of my own making, especially when I check admissions portals that take a long time to load. I get excited, let down, and then anxious.