gradgirlwannabe

I could check Wikipedia............

This gives me hope! =D So does the fact that one of my schools sent out a few rejections today, and I didn't get one. Probably doesn't mean anything promising, but certainly isn't a bad sign! I'm also having a TERRIBLE time focusing on classes! My school provides students with laptops (for an exorbitant tech fee), so it's REALLY hard not to check the results board every five minutes during class!

Best Case Scenario - I'm accepted into only one PhD program (the one with the best funding, fit, and reputation, of course) and have no grounds to question anything. The transition is easy, and I finish my PhD in six years with no problems. I win the Nobel Prize for my dissertation and spend the rest of my life choosing how much research I do and don't want to do. Money, of course, is no problem. Worst Case Scenario - All-round rejections. I go into a state college MA program, racking up debt because by the time I receive my rejections, it's too late to apply for any assistantships. I never get anything published, and when I'm done with the MA, I receive all-round rejections to PhD programs and am driven into taking adjunct positions at community colleges. I can't pay my student loans or any other bills, and I am forced to live on the streets, taking the occasional shower in the gym locker rooms at the schools for which I work.

golden years (when I will FINALLY get into a PhD program, at this rate. =P )

I had a boyfriend once break up with me through a text message after a year together. "It's not going to work." I sort of wish adcoms would do that. 140 characters or less - like ripping off a band-aid.

Today I managed to watch two movies, shower, and master Ode to Joy on the keyboard. Pretty impressive, considering how often I stopped to refresh the results page...

My emails are sent to my phone, so EVERY time it makes ANY little noise, my heart stops. This can't be healthy!

down town

lady luck

The Wind-Up Bird Chronicle - Murakami

fish face

Agreed. I think my world just imploded.

Sous Chef

Due to an overactive case of self-doubt, I've convinced myself that I really want to pursue an MA instead of going straight into an MA/PhD program.

I had a dream that I was pregnant, but then i had a miscarriage - thick with symbolism.

stun gun

major league

Outlook notifies me of new emails... I know some web-based emails do, but I'm not sure which ones.

bird flu

On a logical level, I agree wholeheartedly; however, we have all sacrificed a great deal of time, energy, sleep, food, (possibly) relationships, and who knows what else for this. These sacrifices have made this, for me at least, an emotional endeavor, and emotions don't follow the rules of logic. BUT... thank you for the reassurance. I need to TRY to keep your words in mind.

THIS is the type of thing that keeps applicants busy while waiting, huh, katerific? =P

town house

I'm taking 20 credits this semester and working 20 hours a week. You'd think that would keep me busy, but it's not (as you've read if you've seen my post on the senioritis board).

I'm learning the piano too! Also, spending FAR too much time on this site and (as of today) eating Girl Scout cookies.

If I applied to the CMU PhD program, I need to fill out a separate application to the MA program, right?