Okay so this is my problem: I applied to grad school this year (masters) and I chose not to tell my friends about it. First, because I wasn't expecting to get in and second, because I really didn't want to make a big deal about it. This may sound like a superficial issue, but we are a really close knit group--so keeping such a big thing secret is like betraying the friendship.
So anyway I found out I got in and I am feeling super guilty about it all. I feel like I should have told them, maybe we all could have applied together or at least they would have known. Now I am confronted with the task of telling them. i am afraid they're going to be like "so why didn't you tell us in the first place?" "did you not trust us, why are you secretive?" etc. etc. It's really putting alot of stress on me and I am acting really rude and nervous around them. i don't know how to tell them!
I feel so bad...to the point of I'm thinking of deferring admission (if possible) so that I would just avoid this fiasco. Yeah, right? I sound insane. But I really value my friendships and I don't want to strain it over a secret like this!!!
Need advice, food for thought, please?