KreacherKeeper Posted March 8, 2011 Posted March 8, 2011 My neurosis hit an all time high today when I realized that I spent at least one hour (maybe more) trying to figure out my future based on some obscure change on applyyourself, or whatever the application site happens to be. I looked at my messages (none), I looked to see if I had a new event (nope), I tried to see if I could figure out if my financial aid information had been opened (I couldn't). Of course, since nothing was changed, I decided I must be rejected (obviously, I have proof afterall....) Oh and then at some point, I re-read one of my applications and decided to reject myself, just so I would have a result! So, what are your neurotic ways of seeing if you can 'predict' your results?
tetrandra Posted March 8, 2011 Posted March 8, 2011 I'm feeling a bit crushed right now by the waiting-anxiety, and for your entertainment I will admit that I'm pretty close to using a crystal ball myself... I've had my tarot cards read over this whole situation (in October, pre-application submission), and I'm tempted to go and have it done again. I expect to hear back any day now. I'd have my astrological chart read too but that costs more money, and I'm on a grad student budget as is. I have been obsessively checking my email, gradcafe results page, and phone (apparently what I want is a phone call and not an email...please no email). I've also resorted to checking my online application to see if anything different shows up even though I've heard nothing about this school posting results online. I've been paying attention to all dreams I've had about attending the school and using contextual information to divine my future as a student in the Program of Choice. I ask my boyfriend over and over if he thinks I'll get in, all the while analyzing his responses for any changes in his wording or tone that might mean he knows something I don't. Believe me, I know how all of this sounds. In short, boy am I glad this forum is anonymous. I'm so embarrassed!
pawqara Posted March 8, 2011 Posted March 8, 2011 I'm feeling a bit crushed right now by the waiting-anxiety, and for your entertainment I will admit that I'm pretty close to using a crystal ball myself... I've had my tarot cards read over this whole situation (in October, pre-application submission), and I'm tempted to go and have it done again. I expect to hear back any day now. I'd have my astrological chart read too but that costs more money, and I'm on a grad student budget as is. I have been obsessively checking my email, gradcafe results page, and phone (apparently what I want is a phone call and not an email...please no email). I've also resorted to checking my online application to see if anything different shows up even though I've heard nothing about this school posting results online. I've been paying attention to all dreams I've had about attending the school and using contextual information to divine my future as a student in the Program of Choice. I ask my boyfriend over and over if he thinks I'll get in, all the while analyzing his responses for any changes in his wording or tone that might mean he knows something I don't. Believe me, I know how all of this sounds. In short, boy am I glad this forum is anonymous. I'm so embarrassed! Same boat here. I am inventing new ways of guessing my chances, and have done already all the astrological things available (daily chart, travel chart, studies chart, sun revolution, composite chart and synastries with my POI and school). I so want to know what is going to happen in my life this year, so I can plan ahead!
cokohlik Posted March 8, 2011 Posted March 8, 2011 My neurosis hit an all time high today when I realized that I spent at least one hour (maybe more) trying to figure out my future based on some obscure change on applyyourself, or whatever the application site happens to be. I looked at my messages (none), I looked to see if I had a new event (nope), I tried to see if I could figure out if my financial aid information had been opened (I couldn't). Of course, since nothing was changed, I decided I must be rejected (obviously, I have proof afterall....) Oh and then at some point, I re-read one of my applications and decided to reject myself, just so I would have a result! So, what are your neurotic ways of seeing if you can 'predict' your results? Haha! That's brilliant! I do that too But I also like to refresh the Results page on Grad Cafe and try to find some meaning based on what programs have already been done, comparing GREs/GPAs of accepted applicants to my GRE/GPA, comparing this year's data with previous years' data. I thought I would get letters on March 1, but nothing came, and so now my prediction system is completely thrown off the rail... *sigh* The programs I'm waiting for sure do like to take their time.
surprisecake Posted March 8, 2011 Posted March 8, 2011 I wonder if 2011 is gradcafe's most neurotic season yet.
NoMoreABD Posted March 8, 2011 Posted March 8, 2011 sure feels like it! but I bet all seasons are more or less the same...
OkayforNow Posted March 9, 2011 Posted March 9, 2011 (edited) I am driving everyone in my life crazy with my anxiety. "What do you think this means?" "Do you really think I have chance?" And, of course, I'm driving myself crazy with all these things in my life that could be "signs" to my future. Unfortunately, prospective Special Ed. graduate students do not seem to use GradCafe all that much, or at least not as much as other potential students. Edited March 9, 2011 by JackieH
Silent_Bobina Posted March 9, 2011 Posted March 9, 2011 I've had my tarot cards read over this whole situation I am driving everyone in my life crazy with my anxiety. "What do you think this means?" "Do you really think I have chance?" And, of course, I'm driving myself crazy with all these things in my life that could be "signs" to my future. Unfortunately, prospective Special Ed. graduate students do not seem to use GradCafe all that much, or at least not as much as other potential students. I am so on the same page as everyone posting here. However, these two responses stood out most to me. I've been reading my tarot every few days. I have invented several layouts to try and squeeze any divine information from them possible. I am driving my significant other and co-workers crazy going from anger to assumed rejection and back to hope in moments. I am also frustrated because very few film studies or media studies results have been posted and I'm unsure if that is due to a lack of people in this field posting (although the film studies thread suggests otherwise) or simply because the programs still have on their poker face. Either way, insanity is a given.
OkayforNow Posted March 9, 2011 Posted March 9, 2011 The fact that not a lot of people are posting for Special Education really does feed into my anxiety. It's weird how it does that. So many thoughts run through my head "well, maybe special education is not as competitive because otherwise this website would be filled with other people like me." "maybe people just have way better applications than me so they are not worried/excited enough to post their SpEd admission results." "huh...there does not seem to be a lot of rejections posted for SpEd, hopefully that's a good sign..." Anyhow, I know how you feel Silent B
OkayforNow Posted March 9, 2011 Posted March 9, 2011 Oh, and I just hit the mental wall of "assumed rejection" today. I'm sure I will sway back over to a more optimistic viewpoint shortly. Silent_Bobina 1
jaxzwolf Posted March 9, 2011 Posted March 9, 2011 Magic 8 Ball online. Except I have to keep refreshing it until it tells me what I want to hear. And that doesn't make a lot of sense, because it's not always right when I'm making it say what I want. Oddly comforting, but deceptive. Silent_Bobina 1
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