Hearing Anything Makes It Worse

[johndiligent]

While I'm sure that some of you will want to cut my head off for posting this, I'm looking for commiseration.

Before I heard anything, I lived in this calm peaceful world where I'd convinced myself that results were weeks away, if not entire months. Also having convinced myself that they were all rejections, I was just as happy not knowing. I had some occassional moments of panic but nothing unbearable. But now that I've heard from one school, I've become a PARANOID NUDNIK. I think about results all the time. I check my e-mail every 10 seconds. Why can't the other schools get back to me? Why don't I know yet? Why am I just leaving an offer hanging? What if I wait too long and they give it to someone else because it looks like I'm uninterested? WHEN WILL I KNOW? When can I just decide?

Truly, complete ignorance was bliss.

You folks who haven't heard anything so far? Enjoy it while it lasts.

[joro]

So your LOR problem has been fixed and you got accepted into UBC? I'm really happy for you! I know how you feel about the whole thinking that I'd be waiting till March before hearing anything. I got an acceptance about 2 weeks ago and now I've gone a bit insane with the whole checking email and status pages.

[canlit]

While I'm sure that some of you will want to cut my head off for posting this, I'm looking for commiseration.

Before I heard anything, I lived in this calm peaceful world where I'd convinced myself that results were weeks away, if not entire months. Also having convinced myself that they were all rejections, I was just as happy not knowing. I had some occassional moments of panic but nothing unbearable. But now that I've heard from one school, I've become a PARANOID NUDNIK. I think about results all the time. I check my e-mail every 10 seconds. Why can't the other schools get back to me? Why don't I know yet? Why am I just leaving an offer hanging? What if I wait too long and they give it to someone else because it looks like I'm uninterested? WHEN WILL I KNOW? When can I just decide?

Truly, complete ignorance was bliss.

You folks who haven't heard anything so far? Enjoy it while it lasts.

i feel the same. i had a positive response from one school and have been checking my email impulsively since. before, it wasn't even crossing my mind.

Edited February 17, 2010 by canlit

[captiv8ed]

I know. This is stupid but I got into one school and I will be completely happy to go there. But I keep thinking, "Gee, I hope I didn't get into only one school"

[johndiligent]

So your LOR problem has been fixed and you got accepted into UBC? I'm really happy for you! I know how you feel about the whole thinking that I'd be waiting till March before hearing anything. I got an acceptance about 2 weeks ago and now I've gone a bit insane with the whole checking email and status pages.

Thanks, Joro and congratulations to you as well! My LOR problem is mostly fixed (he's sent the majority now, though I was still nagging him about McGill's as late as yesterday). Luckily, he isn't a total flake, just flakey.

[Katia_chan]

The worst, I think, is for those of us who haven't heard from any schools, but keep hearing about everyone's rejections and acceptances. We don't even have the comfort that our own personal letter flows have started.

I know, for my part, as soon as I heard quite a few schools were starting to notify, I turned into a major headcase.

But I definitely agree, hearing nothing at all is good, as long as the people around you aren't starting to hear and you're not. Ignorance must be complete for it to be blissful. Now, if you'll excuse me, I have to go check my status on 5 different websites.

[joro]

I just found out that another one of my applications has an application status page...

Status: No decision has been made

[TMP]

I'm still in that "ignorance is a bliss" phase. I'm trying to stay in there even though my potential advisor is here to give a talk and do a get-together with grad students in my department and I'm going to be part of the discussion tomorrow. I don't want him to tell me ANYTHING... I'm loving my life right now and I don't want any drama. But if it's good news, I can scream, "Okay everybody, the wait is over and I have a future after graduation after all! Now, let's move on."

Of course, drama happens when you make it happen, it doesn't come on its own. But for me, I'm a drama queen.

[lifetimestudent]

I agree. It's great to know that I got in *somewhere* - amazingly great. But now I am going nuts to hear from the other schools!!