Thanks for the peptalk piccgeek, LadyL, and others. The problem, piccgeek, with your description, is probably that even if I ever were to become what you described, that would be years down the line, and they would not even remember that I'd ever applied to their programs (and most schools don't keep records of applications, and if they did most academics would be too busy anyway to look them up). Also I don't think the cultivation of feelings of superiority is the best way to deal with pain.
Yesterday I started doing some new applications, for late-deadline MA-programs closer to home, and though the most difficult bit there was bugging my LOR writers again (not to mention taking the FB scholarship off my resume), yet it felt energizing.
And then yesterday evening I received a request from the director of graduate studies at one of my best fit programs, that they were finalizing decisions now, and two of my LOR's were missing (how that ever happened?), and if I could have them sent ASAP. I know that it's not an acceptance, or even a confirmed waitlist, and while it may be pathetic, but it made me so happy! :-) :-) :-)
I hope that if a LOR killed me at the other programs, it's not happening right now there as well, though...