Worries: I do not have a backup plan cuz this ain't no just grad school to me. I have lived the first 20 yrs of my life in a place that I def am not compatible with, basically because I'm like Americanized inside out plus I'm gay. Hell I even got an extra convincing general American accent just so to speed up the process of erasing the toxic cultural background from my birthplace, and I'm just tryna wipe the slate clean, bury the past and start a new life with a new name, a new culture, a new appearance and a new attitude. This is a leap of faith for me as I'm cutting ties with my stupid fvckin' old life, I deleted all my contacts including my parents cuz I don't want anyone from my old life to acknowledge my existence and interfere in my new life after I break away. anyways, this is my ticket to escape and I can't afford to lose.
Excitement: I'm gonna start a new life if I get accepted by at least one of the schools that I applied to!