I am 38, had 02 relationships in my back, currently single. I waited for people, did it all to make it work. It did not, another failure for me.
I dont' want to do this anymore, it is too hard. But I would do almost everything again, it is impossible to explain without going into religion stuff (christian if you think matter matters, budhism if matter does not matter)
The reality: people are fucked up, just a mess to be around. And you have to do this in a huge set of ever changing and unwritten social norms